So mum was in a rush today and has been all day, she had work so I didn’t see her this morning, she arrived this evening. Mums friend had surprised her by doing all her jobs so we just had time together cuddling and my most favourite part was being fed tea twice!! Mums friend fed me and my mum had arranged someone to drop my feed in too so I didn’t have to wait for her to arrive to be fed.
Mum was telling me about her front door, she has broken it and has had to get it fixed, it cost her lots of money and she was stressing, but I worked my magic and gave her a love to calm her back down. Money comes and goes, me I’m here for another twenty years yet mum, just sniff my mane and inhale the good things in your life.
Although we didn’t get much time together today, mum tells me that we are going to have to work tomorrow cause I’ve had two teas tonight, not sure I like the sound of that!
Love Kia. X.
So yesterday mom was a little sad, tried as I might, I couldn’t get her to break free from the demons she holds inside, she smiles and pretends to be a happy little soul but when it’s just me and her in the stable, I know she isn’t, she buries her face in my mane and inhales my smell, she hugs me so tight and I just stand, willing her to feel the love I have for her, after all she is my bringer of hay, my feed lady, my shoe payer, my personal maid and my everything.
I wish mum knew that she was enough, the battles she faces are etched in the sadness in her eyes, I’m sure others don’t notice but I do, you see I was the same, years ago, almost dead in the eye but my mum, she made them shine bright again. I want to be able to save her like she saved me, maybe I already am.
I make her laugh when I do my head over the door dance, she loves to hear me call just for her when she arrives at the yard. I wish I could be with her all the time so she doesn’t feel the loneliness anymore, and as for the person who did this to her, I’d like to double barrel their backside right across this yard, how dare they break down my beautiful mum, and stand by and watch as she shatters without caring one jot and carrying on as normally as before.
One day I’ll make her believe she was good enough and she is worth it. But for now I’ll just stand and give her my love whilst she cries her tears in my mane.